I'm Always 30 Years Behind
03.16.06 (10:04 pm) [edit]So, why didn't one of you fuckers tell me that Northern Lights, Southern Cross is a damn fine album from The Band? Actually, unfortunatehair might have, since we were talking about them a while back. I'm hearing it for the first time right now, and I dig the fuck out of it so far.
Goddamn, I'm tired. I've gotta be up by 5:30AM, go to work, and leave work directly for Marion and a gig. We're setting up around 5 and playing from 7-11. I'll stay up there overnight, actually get some rest, and probably hang out at cemeteries and libraries Saturday before our gig that night. Two gigs in two days! Whee! I've also just found out that other than April 1st, we are booked through until the beginning of May now. Double whee! Music! Money! Probably no fucking groupies!
I left a message for A, and I'm hoping she comes to see us Saturday. Perhaps my magnificent stage presence and fabulous skill on the bass will make her all wet and in need of my...oh, who am I kidding. I'll be glad if she shows up at all.
I need to listen to The Band more often.
Emotions went a bit to the dark this morning, but came back after a while, thinking through things. A year ago this week, my life changed. Sunday will be one year since I left Cincinnati. A year ago tonight, I was trying to figure out how to save my marriage, having had "the talk" with her two days previous. The 17th I saw a Keneally/Beller clinic, which was pretty appropriate since the whole reason Sheryl and I met was because of Mike's music. The 18th I decided I couldn't save it and had to leave.
It's been one fuck of a year since. But we're both happier now. We've both proved that we're better off not together, though it's not been easy for either of us. I don't know about her, but I feel we're getting along better than we have in at least 3 or 4 years.
Thank you for doing your part to make this all better in some way, Sheryl. I know I failed miserably at that for a few months, but I hope we're on the right track now. and thank you for the best gift that any woman will ever give me - our Katie. We're pretty fuckin' lucky, dontcha think? :)
Love,
Dougie