Brain Stew
04.18.06 (9:26 pm) [edit]"And if my thought-dreams could be seen
They'd probably put my head in a guillotine."
- Bob Dylan
Dylan pretty much summing up my day once again. It's been strange these past few days, the sinking feeling that everything is falling apart, even though I know it's probably not true, and there's several things going RIGHT. But the feeling is still there. I'm coping fairly well by my admittdly bad standards, except that the urge to drink is immense.
I'm not good company tonight. The shit in my head wants to be let out, but it can't be. Not here.
It's alright ma, I'm only bleeding.
Love,
Dougie
posted by: bacardibreezer (reply)
post date: 04.18.06 (4:36 pm)
Eek, I hope you are not bleeding. Remember what we talked about? lol
If its a gut feeling, trust it. When my ex was cheating on me, I knew it. Alsywa trust it.
posted by: eraserhead667 (reply)
post date: 04.18.06 (5:16 pm)
>Eek, I hope you are not bleeding. Remember what we talked about? lol
LOL. No, this was figurative. :)
>If its a gut feeling, trust it. When my ex was cheating on me, I knew it. Alsywa trust it.
It's not just a relationship thing, it's EVERYTHING. Between my money situation going to hell, knowing that the extra time I thought I'd have with my daughter likely isn't going to happen for a while now, worrying about what's going to go to shit next on the car, and generally just feeling incredibly alone and psychotically horny, I'm not very pleasant the last couple days. Actually, what you and I talked about privately helped in a small way, just to let one part of the equation out there to somebody who understands, so thank you. I appreciate that very much. And i'll get over this shit. Eventually.