I Need Some Sentimental Hygiene
10.27.06 (8:50 pm) [edit]"It seems to me I could live my life a lot better than I think I am"
- Rush, "Working Man"
After a day of typical horseshit from my employer (who hasn't had work for me since Monday) they finally got me signed on for a new gig starting Monday, the best pay they've got me yet.
It's an indication of how shitfuckled my life has become that I'm able to get excited about ten fucking dollars an hour. The fact that it's a 25% raise is equally terrifying.
I'm still stinging from last night. Some of you read it before I deleted it all. I wish I hadn't bothered writing it at all. My luck with damn near everything has been wretched for months now, but the constant feeling of having every woman that I'm genuinely attracted to in a strong way FUCKING with me so much is wearing me down.
Heard from a special young lady tonight for the first time in weeks. Now, if I could move her 1000 miles closer to here...
My first gig on lead guitar with the band tomorrow night. Should be a hoot.
I wrote the drummer from the Cincy band Monday to tell him I had to back out. I heard from him tonight, and he was very nice about it, but I feel bad for having to hand him another setback - he's been trying to get something going for a LONG time. I just have too much shit on my plate to give time to anything else.
Time to play some guitar. Nighty-night, motherfuckers.
Love
Dougie